a quick post before i run off to bed. been sick these days. have no motivation at all. the aftermath of the so call big fight is really breaking me. no matter how much i tried to cheer myself up. i couldnt. i'm still smiling but inside my head, i'm still thinking of dear granny. i'm afraid to call her. afraid that she might think that i'm just putting up a show. its wrong for me to think like that. but thats not the reason. it was the words that i'm gonna say to granny over the phone. which is nothing! i cant think of anything to talk to her. i'm really feeling guilty. when i really pluck up my courage to make that phone call, she's asleep. coincidience? then, got news about grandpa coming to singapore, going to be admitted to the hospital. feel like crying again. held it back. went to indulge myself in korean buzz. and for the whole day i have been spamming the forum with posts. wanted to post about some k-news but something is just holding me back. but my photoshop is opened! i gotta do sth! so ya, exploded once again. m happy with it, but it still didn bring a smile onto my face. i really think i produce quite satisfactory stuff when i'm stress. bad thing or good? using jaejoong as the main focus, is so wrong. but whatever, alot of singaporeans still dunno them. so just treat it as a normal stock picture. te-ar, t-ear, however you pronounce it. it still potray negativity. for this case, at least.