i quarrelled with my granny today. its really my fault. but i'm hating it that my granny always say different things in different situations. my trust for her, u know sometimes, i dont really want to trust her. but i still love her no matter what. the issue was about my granny, well at that moment, i heard my granny criticise me like some kind of useless kid. i know nothing & really NOTHING! then after that she said differently in front of me. well i know i'm useless. but the thing i hate it is, why she said things differently in front of me and at the back of me. i know she love me the most, but sometimes i feel, shes making use of this "i love you the most" to get my sympathy. altho i not once did think of that. but as time goes by, i find my granny really acts differently. even in front of love ones. why is that? it really broke my heart. she told me she didn say it, i really would believe it, if she could really tell it to me firmly and not saying things to support that she didn say it. she said like, "why would i say that, i even praised you" but y bother telling me all these instead of the truth? i was also heartbroken that someone who love me so much criticise me like this. i bothered me while i was doing the dishes. after the visitors left, i asked her. she still didn tell me. then it ended, i forgotten all abt it. till she brought it up again. n how i hate my attitude! i raise my voice. but i still love her, why did she hang up my phone for the first time then told me everything when she could have told me yesterday. and now i'm here crying cos i raise my voice at her. i'm really heartbroken. still right or wrong, i still hope my grandmother wont doubt my love for her. she cried when i called her to apologise. i still argued with her crying. because i wanted her to understand. i wasnt angry, i was really sad. i dun even know wad the hell m i typing. i told her, i shouted, i scold, cos i bothered to. and truly i am. but i guess, its still wrong. i dont think she want to hear my apologies anymore. i called her once again to ask for forgivness, she just answered ok. i cried even harder. why...... things have to turn out this way. i'm sorry yet thank you, grandmother.
