i just feel so drained out. today again, 放我鸽子。sometimes i dont feel appretiated or respected. so i think i need not be nice anymore. then after you read the quote "i need not be nice anymore" you laugh, and question when was i nice.

★ Lets list it out;

1. i am not nice to tell you i have put up tutorials on my blog.
2. i am not nice to hold tutorial sessions to teach you things.
   
3. i am not nice to listen to all your complains about test, projects, tired when i am also tired, i have tests and projects and i am in my 3rd yr.
4. i am not nice when i put up with all those crappy excuses like i wasnt updated when you guys did not take the initiative to ask
5. i am not nice when i trash it out with you guys when i shldnt even bother to trash it out
6. i am not nice when i cared and panic for you guys when deadlines are not met and may result in you guys getting into trouble with the upper management or the senior committee.
7. i am not nice to be patient and look through your graphics thoroughly when you guys come approach me for opinions and comments when i actually spoke the truth and you guys took it personally.
8. i am not nice when i reminded you the importance of your reason being in this event in this position.
9. i am not nice when i cried over the matters which doesnt involves me which include emphasizing you guys have talent, potential and this is your event, your reputation, your pride.
10. i am not nice to spend hours discussing with other seniors how am i suppose to help you guys.
11. etc . . .

so then i have listed out what i can recalled when i am not nice. therefore i should do some soul searching and be nice.

★ Lets list it out again;

1. i am nice when i am cold or find excuses to your replies or requests because WHO ARE YOU TO ME? or question yourself WHO AM I TO YOU? or another question, how did you treat me to make me treat you this way.
   
2. i am nice to not issue deadlines so that you guys can do whatever you want at your own time at your own target. where time is after the whole event is being cancelled. and target, the event is finally CANCELLED!
3. i am nice to not give tutorial sessions when i shld be selfish because all those techniques, i found out myself, i explored myself, i learn photoshop ALL BY MYSELF!
4. i am nice to not give comments and critisms and you guys end up not improving.
5. i am nice to just shut up and let you guys just settle everything be it wrong or correct, afterall, its your event not mine.
6. i am nice to just smile like i am your hi-bye friend or just a crazy person who forget to take her medicine.
   
7. i am nice to let you ruin your own reputation and let loses who dont know nuts about design criticise your graphics. making you WORSE THAN A LOSER.
8. i am nice to let you claim all the credit, because throughout, my help didn did much, all the talking is just BULLSHIT isnt?
   
9. i am nice to spill out all this SHIAT to my blog readers and let them know that I am such a lousy senior/advisor and that you guys are such excellent leaders.
10. i am nice to just end with point 10 and not continue.
    

YAY! my first official post after my new skin's up. people wanna try find my ace republic logo? its hidden somewhere on the skin heh heh. anywayz THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVES ❤ ❤ ❤

i m so into typography these days LOL. was browsing thru the net & found these optical illusions.
CREDITS to colorbrunch; i think. strain your eyesight 吧 haha!

- o jaejoong look so good on da new skin~

its been so long since i blog. alot of things happen. more bad things than good. AH~ fuck it! its life!
its oso been long since i "played". LOL made something today. played with it. mix n match.
so i'll shut up now!

01. What disappoints you the most?
somebody touching my screen~ i will ROAR!!!

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Barcelona! {shocked that its not korea, huh? haha}

03. What's your favorite thing to do?
go ga ga over koreans which all look ard da same~

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
ya can; but short while nia

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
dont wake up from my dream

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
can! i was born without money anywayz~ {thus i'll die faster without money too, u cant bring money to hell/heaven dude!}

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
to not gain anything after i have lost.

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
continue with my day-dreaming. OOOoooOOOOOoo

09. What color represents you the most?
DUH! purple la~~

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
smiles; laughs; words of comfort :)

11. What makes you happy?
nothing that makes me sad~

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
fakes? hmm . . hating very tiring deh! just ignore just ignore~

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
meaning shld b 30 yrs old~ hmm . . KOREA maybe? LOL

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
whoo~ fly here fly there~

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
life la DUH~ if no life jiu nothing is impt le wad~

16. Any childhood memories you'll like to re-live?
OOOooo~~~ go back indo peng crab~

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
my something-wrong-ness

18. What makes you cry?
hmm... like no particular reason.

19. What is your least favourite animal?
frogs~~ OOoooOOOO~~

20. What is one thing your friends probably don't know about you?
jiu dont know that you dont know me lo~ OMG!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Kai Hoow
2. Suyee
3. Kah Wei
4. Wen Fang
5. Jason
6. Syaipul
7. Joyce
8. Zhiyang

题目的原因
everyday we see on the news, crisis, tragedies, accidents, terrorists attacks, illnesses. what is the world becoming? not one day, theres no such news. i do pity and sympathize those innocent people out there who just lost their lives. they still have a long way to go and yet it just ends *LIKE THAT.

在一夜之间
it just had me thinking, do we deserve this? posting this most probably will get me into trouble. but i just wanna point out my view. those innocent are really innocent, but when u see the big picture, seeing all mankind as a whole, we are the ones polluting this world, making it an ugly place. burning forests, inventing machines altho to protect but its main task is to destroy. if there werent these things, these actions, will the world be a better place? would we still be punished? you can say that i'm simple minded but think about it, ITS MOST PROBABLY JUST THIS SIMPLE! take for example the weird viruses which are haunting us right now. SARS and bla blas. if we humans did not contaminate the environment, would there be such illness? viruses don't just appear like BOOM! in the past, we survive on mainly medicine, now, we are dying because of medicine. wad medicine? pesticides, pollution. y i say pollution are medicines? because, those were produce in the process of helping mankind, but in the long run, it harm us. mother nature gave this and that to us. our greed, our corrupted minds took it for granted, we are gradually destroying it. so think about it, do we humans deserve these crisis to fall upon us? what is right what is wrong?

我到底有没有资格
i know i have no rights to comment about this, cos nothing really bad happened to me. i did not lose my family in the earthquake, i did not have any close ones murdered and so on.. //or maybe just one, my heart. but i know this is my punishment for what i did in my previous life or somesort// but to those who did bad, the world is facing the judgement, the punishment, paying the price which is too huge. i can say maybe my sympathy isnt as strong as those eye witnesses and families who have lost their beloved but i pray i still pray and think about the impossible: the world to be a better place. its a simple wish but it carries alot of weight. wishful thinking? nope, its not. not only me, everybody have the rights to think and dream about this dream.

美好世界
define whats a better place you would like to be in. a better place where we are killing the bad? is killing good? taking pills and more pills. with the change of medicine, viruses change as well. the pills get stronger, viruses too. are we fighting our own war? before medicine was invented, do those people need pills? whats a better place? WHAT?!

人类啊； 是最可怕的动物。
still, i pray for *us . . 因为，我们也是最可怜的。

我要这个。
我要那个。
就因为我要，因此我选择不要。
要，你可真毒啊。
把我都搞昏了。
要，你可真毒啊。
把我都搞得不成人行。
让我痴痴的渴望到底我要什么。
让我痴痴的等待着什么。

to those who want to design/photoshop but "dunno how to". i will be posting some tutorials up. hopefully this would help! dese are all SUPER BASIC !!!! u can use it but under the following conditions

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//credit if use
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