shout out to SG EPIK HIGH FANS!
if you are a epik high fan, can you do me a favor? tag my board/email me at stainedxoul@gmail.com. pls o pls. i want to ask you questions. or maybe we could place orders together?

this is again another overdued post. i'm terribly sorry about it. i think many knew i went Missing-In-Action right after the submission of NTU Arts, Design, Media portfolio submission. i wasnt online for days, uncontactable, didn replied many sms-es or calls. i seriously apologise about that. i didn want to just suddenly disappeared. so sorry. there was some important issues happened back at home.

the incident is quite heartbreaking actually. my grandpa is already 80 who just celebrated his 80th birthday. its sad that i couldnt attend due to uni applications and portfolio preparations. i haven seen my grandpa for a very long time and then one day when i was at my grandma's house keeping her company, the house phone rang and brought in bad news. serious bad news. my grandpa had a relaspe. or maybe i use the wrong word. grandpa's health have never been well. he nearly suffered stroke and this time it was far worse. he couldnt move his limbs, he was stiff in bed, his body was cold, and he had difficulties breathing. my uncle afraid that he "couldnt make it" called everyone in the family to return. the constant ringing back and forth of the phone between singapore and indonesia to keep us updated in grandpa's health. things began to look better in the early afternoon. grandma had a great shock, so is my mum and i. due to the ferries' scedule there werent earlier rides therefore we reached tanjung pinang in late evening. as things were better, and we, granny, my mum, my cousin and i were famished, my first uncle brought us to had dinner before returning home after a near an hour's ride.

when we got back home, the first thing was to greet my grandpa to check on how his was doing. my grandpa was lying in bed, fairly warm now as my mum held his hand in hers. my mum called out for him. his eyes opening only a small gap. his vision was blur i think. but whats heartbreaking was, grandpa questioned : "who are you?". my cousin and i with our eyes opened wide and tears start to pour. one of the relatives shouted out : " she's your daughter! and your grand children!" grandpa tried to get up, but his exhaust was tying him down. he stared at my mother and then had his other hand covering his eyes, grandpa started to cry. my cousin and i went outside and convinced ourselves that grandpa did not not recognise us, is just too sudden he couldnt recover his sense etc. we had a small chat outside grandpa's room with his other sons and daughters.

its really heartbreaking and due to my limited vocabulary, i only can think of this word. its truly a heartbreaking scene. usually its just some sons or daughters in sad love stories when they kneel down beside their love ones' bedside crying. this scene would trigger you to cry in front of your television set. imagine, this scene is brought real life with the people who love you, cry with you, did everything for you. and thinking about all this, i'm already crying. i bet if my parents were to see me right now, they most probably would bomb me with questions.

my grandpa is alright now. at least he is able to eat, walk and talk or even fight with his precious dogs. my grandpa love dogs. even if they disobey him, he would still squat down and stroke their back and talk to them, talking them round to be good dogs. its really a heart warming scene to see my grandpa do that.

ok i'm done :]