//picture credit : wazabeesi just feel so drained out. today again, 放我鸽子。sometimes i dont feel appretiated or respected. so i think i need not be nice anymore. then after you read the quote "i need not be nice anymore" you laugh, and question when was i nice.
★ Lets list it out;- i am not nice to tell you i have put up tutorials on my blog.
- i am not nice to hold tutorial sessions to teach you things.
- i am not nice to listen to all your complains about test, projects, tired when i am also tired, i have tests and projects and i am in my 3rd yr.
- i am not nice when i put up with all those crappy excuses like i wasnt updated when you guys did not take the initiative to ask
- i am not nice when i trash it out with you guys when i shldnt even bother to trash it out
- i am not nice when i cared and panic for you guys when deadlines are not met and may result in you guys getting into trouble with the upper management or the senior committee.
- i am not nice to be patient and look through your graphics thoroughly when you guys come approach me for opinions and comments when i actually spoke the truth and you guys took it personally.
- i am not nice when i reminded you the importance of your reason being in this event in this position.
- i am not nice when i cried over the matters which doesnt involves me which include emphasizing you guys have talent, potential and this is your event, your reputation, your pride.
- i am not nice to spend hours discussing with other seniors how am i suppose to help you guys.
- etc . . .
so then i have listed out what i can recalled when i am not nice. therefore i should do some soul searching and be nice.
★ Lets list it out again;- i am nice when i am cold or find excuses to your replies or requests because WHO ARE YOU TO ME? or question yourself WHO AM I TO YOU? or another question, how did you treat me to make me treat you this way.
- i am nice to not issue deadlines so that you guys can do whatever you want at your own time at your own target. where time is after the whole event is being cancelled. and target, the event is finally CANCELLED!
- i am nice to not give tutorial sessions when i shld be selfish because all those techniques, i found out myself, i explored myself, i learn photoshop ALL BY MYSELF!
- i am nice to not give comments and critisms and you guys end up not improving.
- i am nice to just shut up and let you guys just settle everything be it wrong or correct, afterall, its your event not mine.
- i am nice to just smile like i am your hi-bye friend or just a crazy person who forget to take her medicine.
- i am nice to let you ruin your own reputation and let loses who dont know nuts about design criticise your graphics. making you WORSE THAN A LOSER.
- i am nice to let you claim all the credit, because throughout, my help didn did much, all the talking is just BULLSHIT isnt?
- i am nice to spill out all this SHIAT to my blog readers and let them know that I am such a lousy senior/advisor and that you guys are such excellent leaders.
- i am nice to just end with point 10 and not continue.
thanks for letting me know how am idiot i am. thanks for reminding me that I AM EVIL like i always have admitted. thanks for letting me know how much potential you have wasted being under such a lousy senior/advisor like me. thanks for letting me finally found what exactly i must do. thanks for letting me break free. thanks for letting me DONT CARE ABOUT YOU GUYS ANYMORE! really i thank you guys. i am tired, i am really tired, one last thanks for letting me rest.
if you think the above are just crap, just fake sentences made up by me just to agitate anybody, or are just pure entertainment. well, i cant control your mind, your thinking, but i gotta say, i wanted to say this a long time ago and its written from the bottom of my heart. Still i still pray for them, the rest is up to them.
