i think i will get into much trouble after posting this up. but this is my story; whats yours? i'm just going to spill everything out. afriend! i think i might need your help again!
//title : tear down your mask
y doesnt doing the right thing doesnt look right at all. those finger pointing. those criticisms/favoritisms always turn out to be right instead. "FACE"; the face isit that important? the image isit that important? admitting wrong, deserving the punishment is an image! if people says you this and says you that, do u think is that important? tell yourself you are doing the right thing, u are also protecting something so be proud of it. as long as your conscience is clear, i think its fine. if you cant handle something then let the people with higher authority handle it. yes i understand that we care about ones future. but if we don't even stop the wrong from the start, it will never end doesnt it? something still has to be done.
if the higher authority is unhappy about it and throws the blame on us. i think we should stand up for ourselves as we already did our part by reminding and telling but we still cant change it if something wrong has happen cos humans are not robots which cannot be controlled. we are students, what can we do. if really we do carry out actions, the seriousness might get even worse, and it the end the blame still falls on us and even get worse. whats the use?
one more thing, these reminding and telling to you is harsh is wrong or become a nuisance but it is the right thing to do! you may seem that things said are just saying to shield ourselves but did u even put yourself in our shoes or picture yourself in our situation that why are we carrying out all these. thinking that we did just for the fun of it, misuse of our authority or simple just for show? some people do but think over, do you deserve it? look at your work look at your attitude before you defend yourself, before you complain to others that we are the bad ones here when actually you are fighting your own enemy.
in addition, some people just need to be seen around to show that they are around. y cant ones presence be a fruitful one? be a meaningful one? all those sweet talkings, all those sorry, all those u feel & i knows do u really mean it? u know u have done this and y still keep doing it? remind isnt going to work all the time because most of the time not only other people are reminding u, u yourself are also doing the same. i keep having this thinking y people say guilty but i dont guilt from the person saying it? sorry is just a simple gesture. it carries no weight at all. tear down your mask please . . i understand that i m heartless but seriously as time goes by what i see is this. weightless apologies, fake smiles, sweet talks. we always say dun only talk/say, do it! so y isnt it still not done? or another situation, where coming out from your mouth is saying you appreciate our hardwork yet you are restricting us, blocking us thinking we will get into trouble, NO! get you into trouble. minds our mankind these days are seriously getting corrupted by materialistic things, BY FACE !
this thing have been kept inside of me for a long long time. something regarding the one for all all for one. some people are seen so obviously that they care about people's welfare. to them those who shout, those who make you work your butt out are those who dun care abt your welfare. it that really true? this is a characteristic of a "L". we always get the things done and then relax later, right? so isit this relax for all or for one? y many people picture it not for a whole but for individual? we are given a project, i personally is unhappy with always the same old people working hard where others are chit-chatting but hands arent actually moving. and i was told, we ought to have fun while working. i know it should be done this way but what i see is fun is there but work isnt done. in addtion we have a deadline, that makes me feel even worse. moreover, this is a group project, you are not doing for me, you are doing it for your own, so y cant u help me help yourself? instead of picturing me as a workaholic, a heartless being. when i sincerely is taking care of everyone's welfare, everyone's reputation to a certain extend. i know my method is wrong, but dont u want to feel the glory getting nearer to you?
lastly, we always think of what is not done instead of what is being done. since its done, we should get ourselves prepared for the consequences be it good or bad.
today is just soSOsoSOsoOOOoooo wrong!
FIRST//performance DUH?!totally screwed! whatever & whatevers. one of us have to take the blame/being labeled for something that we have not done. somebody just have to save their asses & dun care about the welfare of others. wads humanity becoming these days.
SECOND//damn those sickening lecturers againwas suppose to be a chance but it just flewed away & i was only told today! they give me lame reasons lame excuses. most prob once again just wanna save their ass from getting fired! did not even approach me & str8 away strike me off the list.
THIRD//sickening timetablescanned through my timetable OMG! wth is this! one hr lesson ONLY on THURSDAY & FULL DAY ON FRIDAY ! with 3 hrs break in between ! i so wanna kill the management of NYP ! so stupid can!
FORTH//lagging networkwhat is happening to deviantart dese days?! lagging like shit OR WORSE loads NOTHING AT ALL ! n no notification of wads going on~ WHERE THE HELL IS THE MANNERS! the "sorry for inconvenience". where where where?! argh!
FIFTH//bad newsvery very bad news! my doctor just passed away LIKE 2 WEEKS AGO ! but only knew today. everything is just lagging! i really cant believe such a healthy person just passed away LIKE THAT ! one fall; its the end of the story. was 86 yrs old; he had perfect eyesight IMAGINE THAT ! eat healthy, treats ppl nice, helped me survived my first ever heart attack when i was 9 i think. teach me how to take care of myself & BEM! R.I.P.
damn i wanna KILL PEOPLE !
b4 leaving leh~ lol 
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