will blog abt the events soon. hee hee. hands too itchy wanna photoshop instead.

but i think i shall start abit today b4 i forget. {gonna be a long post } 19DEC 3pm, mass briefing. not full attendence like always. feedback session, look into the past session, shooting session?! haha. ok today cried again! Y?! haiz. didn really said what i wanted to say cos was too nervous then burst into tears. ok recalled & recalled.

here goes the __ evaluation:

1. the crying part. is not always cos of my heart. just sometimes i wanna say sth, i cant bring myself to say it. i cry cos i cant overcome myself, its not anyone who influence or give me pressure. its actually my own fault. i m still trying to voice out now.
   i dunno y i talk to diff ppl with diff attitude. like i need to really hang with u then i will be open to you. if not i will restrict myself from telling u things. cries. i oso dunno y like dat. its like i am very noisy when i m with my classmates but i m not with the excos.
   
2. then abt ones responsibility. i think like when one is given a job. just do it. beginning we may just do things for the sake of doing that. true cos this cannot be force. but even if u are doing it for the sake of doing it, one should give your best in everything. we cant like say we first time this first time that. cos we cant possible did everything once de right? theres oways a first time. thats what make life interesting. or else we are only repeating what we have done.
3. tommy rated us as an IC. my score, was consider good cos i didn failed. i was quite happy at first. but then i think. there is a full mark! how come i didn get? then think thru, i really think i dun deserve the marks that tommy gave. to me i should be the opposite = failed being an IC. the event didn came out the way i want it to be. there are complains. i could think of more negatives than positives. james said our committee is considered one of the strongest but yet the managment still didn make full use of this manpower to make the event end off with a blast. haiz
4. then like i said, IC is not like a boss. beginning i can just be a BOSS. give orders and really GIVE ORDERS & reprimand anyone who dun do the things that i ask them to. but then come to think of it. this is not a company. we are all of the same kind, same standard. so like if i really give an attitude of a BOSS, i m really sorry. still hope everyone's welfare is taken care of.
5. ok shld be alot more de, but i forgotten. LOL continue next time. heehee.