like the gif says "我的天空总是一片黑暗"
today i felt it again. darkness. voices telling me to do this then later another voice telling me to do the opposite. y in the world that inside us they are spilt although we are a whole. i know what i want but i'm swayed by my surrounding. today's mood : DOWN! hate this. i long time dun have this sickening feeling i not knowing what i really want. or i know what i want but yet cos of the circumstances i cant get what i want so i start to look elsewhere and forget what i wanted before.

ok wad the hell m i talking up there! ARGH ! this damn feeling~~ GO AWAY !!!! GO AWAY !!! hate you hate you. spoil my mood, spoil my creativity wo de tian~~ GO & DIE U! u sickening DEVIL ! argh~~~~

ok talk happy. today HAIZ sad again la. today had my dinner alone cos after i showered everyone is already in their air-con rooms. i cant walk in with the food~ IT WILL STINK ! tian~ but nvm. there are many ppl out there eating alone everyday anywayz. whats there to sad about? i shld be happy that i have some quiet time for myself. & then, ya today mother 罢工. didn cook dinner so eat 打包. hmm ah ma house there de mixed vege is nicer & better looking! haiz TODAY IS SO WRONG ! haiz but finally one correct de was, I COOKED MY FATHER SUPPER! LOL macham taking exam. my father keep coming into the kitchen to check on me but i chased him away. LOL sadded! i tried the noodles. hmm... its not heavenly but still can be eaten la. but my DADDY describe it until wah seh~~ EAT GOLD ! 吃黄金. LOL!

ok thats the end! DAMN THE MOTIVATION COME BACK !
oya tmr dental check up~ WAH SIAN ! gonna bleed again! EAT 12 PILLS@ ONE GO AGAIN!!! WTF! argh~ HATE IT HATE IT ! ok buaiZ