- a promise is a promise. dun promise if u cant do it & then find excuses saying humans are not perfect. ITS BULL SHIT ! 君子一言。驷马难追。if i made a promise to u, but i broke it. how u feel is HOW I FEEL !
- things ppl want to tell me TELL! SHOOT IT AT MY FACE ! dun take my heart condition as an excuse for not telling me. wad can i do. just cry wad. CRY ONLY ! i wont commit suicide. {the barrier is not me, IS YOU YOURSELF !}
- wad you have to say, SAY ! but mind tt tone. if u give me attitude, for wad i listen? if i give u attitude, will you listen?
- crying sometimes is just a form of letting loose. may not be a sign of weakness. tears may help ppl to get stronger too! but some tears, on the other hand, belongs to some disgusting ppl who use to attract foolish ppl to sympathize them. MY TEARS ARE NOT ! you dun want to do sth. dun just cry n ppl will let u off. I WONT LET U OFF ! i will give u a even deeper hell to crawl into !
- its not exactly not taking care of ppl's welfare. we ourselves shld know wad we can do wad we cant. if cannot ask for help, find solutions! dun depend on others!
- balancing. welfare again~ balance youself, its ur responsiblity! dun tell me u got this u got that. NO USE ! i dun give a damn abt it! things you need to do DO IT!
- if i really take care of everyone's welfare. i might as well do everything my own. its faster! is quieter cos NO MORE COMPLAINS FROM YOU GUYS ! & i will only blame myself instead of starting a fight with ppl who dun admit their wrong doings!
- guilt. dun only say & dun feel the real guilt. ITS USELESS ! u feel guilty abt it, do something to kill it! dun just say for fun just to hear ppl say "nvm nvm" its disgusting. some ppl might say nvm, but they are cursing you behind your backs. DUN MAKE ME DO THAT !
- things i mentioned already, TAKE NOTE ! dun come to me when things dun go your way! its sickening when its ur fault & u keep shielding urself!
- i m doing my job, i may not do it perfectly. I ALREADY ADMITTED THAT ! stop rubbing on it like you yourself have done everything so perfectly, ITS FLAWLESS. MY FOOT !
- things i do have reasons, i know everyone does. so pls respect that! dun think you are the only one BREATHING THIS AIR ! u dun respect me, for wad i give u my respect?
- laziness. u say u lz to do this. u dun feel like doing that. isnt it the same for me? but things we have to do, DO IT !!!! this is LIFE! LIVE WITH IT !
- you say u sounded mean, so you know that?! then y still do it?! had fun hurting ppl then apologise? TOO LATE ! its oredi inside my brain! i rmb every word every tone every gesture!
- initiative. YES ! it takes alot of courage to do this. BUT NOT TO THE EXTEND asking just a little thing! & blame others for ur own mistakes! ONLY COS U DIDN TAKE THE INITIATIVE !
- yes i have noted that u are trying your best. DUH ?! I KNOW~~~~ u dun have to repeatly say it! i m oso trying my best to do what i am suppose to do. i know i have flaws. YOU DO TOO ! say it nicely, cant you? do you have to use the damn sick tone? i m not a dog, a maid a NOBODY ! i have feelings too. & u making it sound like i m oways making the same mistake when i SoooOOOoo DID NOT ! open up your damn EARS, CANT YER?!
- i m learning to be heartless & i will be one day. & i can c i becoming one soon. GOOD ! making ppl hate you is better than allowing ppl torment you. at least those heartless ppl, having no friends, they dun need to take care of ppl's feelings. they are selfish ppl & are not crying every single night thinking of wad other ppl says about them. cos they are heartless, no one harms them.
those u think u fit into those criterias mentioned, PLS TAKE NOTE ! dun make me shout it str8 at your face. you wont like dat! if i really become a heartless freak, be prepared!
