mylittle.crazy ❤

@#$%&@#$%&%#@ 20071031

就好像一锅油，一惹火就马上引爆！求求你啦~
wah its like sometimes i care for nothing! i chiong for what when you guys dun appretiate it? i already trying to help le then can u guys help me to help you??? PLEASE?! ITS NOT A ONE MAN SHOW !
you guys hide things from me dun tell me this dun tell me that then u tell me hey say out la~ wad u stress about sad about, when you yourself WAH SEH ! SHUT YOURSELF FROM ME ! WTF ! then giving empty promises & when i asked y u did that? you give all kinds of excuses! if you really care, will you do this? come on la~ dun be disgusting! say till you my damn good fren~ in the end~ LIKE SHIT ! dun come to me only when you are alone. only when you need my help. DONT USE ME ! ITS DISGUSTING ! SO DISGUSTING ! ITS LIKE SHIT !
these days macham everyone wanna pick a fight with me or sth. everybody like TOTALLY STRANGERS TO ME ! i oredi so pek chek CANNOT SEE AR?! WAD KIND OF * ARE YOU LA ! u say u understand me~ LIKE HELL YOU DO ! FUCK OFF LA! u say things so simply you yourself cant do it still come say me~ SHOUT TT AT YOUR OWN FACE FIRST THEN COME TALK TO ME !
& ppl please la~ USE YOUR BRAIN CAN MA?~ help in the right time? dun act like you care yet helped NOTHING ! only adding on to the problem nia! ACT LIKE YOU CARE BUT YOU ARENT! YOU ARE STILL AS SELFISH AS YOU ARE ! GO N DIE CAN?! sympathy dun come like dis! i heart murmur consider doing fine. so WHAT MAKES A GOD DAMN CRYBABY CRYING OVER MINIATURE STUFF MAKE YOU GO UP AND HELP HER?~ when she herself dun want to help herself. choose her choose there? you are oredi DUMPED ! SO Y STILL LET OTHER PPL PICK YOU THIS DISGUSTING GARBAGE UP ???!!! go n die la~~~ BIAS ONLY LO~ ppl doing work de leh~ cant u see??? then she only tired cry cry act innocent abit jiu haiya u go rest la~ lend ur back to her~ YOU THINK YOU HERO AR?! then later still dare to complain! WTF LA !
THEN MY DAMN SICKENING HEART ! ARGH! STOP REACTING CAN???~~~~ STOP SHOWING THOSE SIGNS ~~~ ARGH !!!! your time will come~ PLEASE I BEG OF YOU !!!! ARGH !!!!!

-- this is just a form of destress-ing~ dun mind it~ its just talking crap~ REAL CRAP !

ppl dese days my mood damn bad, if i really explode please understand~

11:54:00 PM

TO MY ANGEL ! 20071026

WAH FINALLY !!!

wah seh finally! u interact with me & on my birthday~ LOL wah seh. you wei le play the game go create an account. then have to change every 2 months le wor. haha. u busy but ALSO MUST TAKE CARE WOR ! u down ur mortal oso down! ytd received ur FIRST LETTER ! damn happy can~ haha~~ THANKS THANKS AR~ i will try to slp early next time~ can i ask u guy or girl anot ar? come tag my board can? more interaction ma~ keep me alive.

& lastly TAKE CARE !
{ gonna do u a graphic when i get home :D }

here u go!

{ right click view picture for bigger original size viewage~ } :D

12:17:00 PM

BORED&EMPTY 20071021

lived in ah ma house ytd. grandpa's operation is over. but he say still no change in condition. WTF! curse of those doctors starts again~ eek ! anywayz was damn stress dunno over wad, got my hair cut again. this time even SHORTER ! then once again feel so empty go photoshop again. hmm i find i produce quite good stuff when i'm stress. LOL anywayz did SUPER JUNIORS one whole set. &some dbsk's. here is the suju set {do credit if use, tks!}:

credits:
ibelonginnarnia icon tutorial | asianfanatics | bla blas ★★★

the end! C&C are welcomed! still empty. i shld be studying now or whatever~ argh! the mood never comes. Y? Y? Y? tmr is another day. O SO SIAN !

11:22:00 PM

阿公，加油！ 20071017

阿公，加油！阿公，加油！阿公，加油！阿公，加油！
★★★★★★

明天就是阿公开刀的日子。看得出阿公是怕的，只是不说而已。

ok feel kinda unfocomfortable typing chinese. tmr will be grandpa's opreation day.
its in the morning, really early! have to go sch so cant visit him.
wish he get well soon! fight all the fears! 阿公，加油!

very how to say . .ok another topic :
today trash talk. hmm i would quite successful yet not cos i still feel everyone has not opened up yet. very true we think about each other feelings. thats a good sign cos shows that we care. but for me i think one shld learn to be brave enf to live up to this shooting n stuff. if words can hurt, then actions wont it be worse? one have to face up to the truth lah~ get wad i mean? this is only saying nia ma~ ok maybe only i think tt way cos i myself is straightforward de. & dun cos i got health condition u guys treat me differently. treat me different at the correct timing at least. dun let me be so spoilt! pls~ &&& RICHARD today really can c he put in effort. EVERYONE IS ! haiz i shldnt be blogging but just wanna chill for a while~ sry! so REMINDER PLS ! cos I STILL NOOB !

ok change topic again~ :
ytd went to Simlim acco wen fang buy hard disk n blas blas, actually was to find tees shoes bla bla but cos rain n lateness haiz end up nothing in my hand. THATS GOOD !!! then mic, fang n me shared one umbrella wah seh~ wet de lo ! but was fun~~~ haha ok i sth wrong~ ok 就这样!

ok talking crap upstairs haiz, oso dunno wad i typed. . .

PEOPLE TAKE CARE!!! OMT I FALLING ILL SOON~~~
TAKE CARE TAKE CARE~~~~

11:25:00 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEWELRY !!! 20071007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEWELRY !!!

did a graphic for you~ sry if its ugly~
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!
wish all your wishes come true !! GET PRETTY & PRETTIER!
HWAITING !!!

6:03:00 PM

TIAN AR~~ 20071006

another voting session! 4 S.I.T CLUB LOGO!
below are the displays~ TMD i hate me & jewelry de display ARGH !!! not complicated enough~

anywayz~

JEWELRY:

http://i119.photobucket.com/albums/o126/stainedxoul/JEWELRY.jpg

DANIEL:

http://i119.photobucket.com/albums/o126/stainedxoul/DANIEL.jpg

KENNETH:

http://i119.photobucket.com/albums/o126/stainedxoul/KENNETH.jpg

lastly ~~~

MYSELF:

http://i119.photobucket.com/albums/o126/stainedxoul/CHARLENE.jpg

then . .
just went for a wedding dinner. haiz usual stuff sit there like stone when food comes grab! WAH HA HA~ i like the dessert ! ALMOND dunno wad plus TANG YUAN ! lol ok go slp~

12:22:00 AM

I HATE MY HAIR EVEN MORE !!! 20071001

I CHOP OFF MY HAIR !!!!

CRIES !!! i hate my hair even more! mygod~

haiz cut jiu cut le WAD CAN I DO ~~~ anywayz today gonna be the last day i at "ah ma" de house taking care of my grandpa! so tapping on other ppl de *cough again~ shh.. shh.. ytd grandpa treat me n my brother to SAKAE ! OMT I WAS DAMN HIGH ! Y? COS THEY PLAYING TVXQ! 2ND JAP ALBUM ! "FIVE IN THE BLACK" i only heard "sky", "begin" & "choosey lover" wad happen to ZION? argh~ i was too into eating the sushi i guess~

then then . . .
BAD NEWS ! grandpa de eyesight is getting worse after today's checkup at the general eye center~ i was with him while mother n another 婆婆 went to settle some things {sounds like some gang stuff, lol} ok back~ grandpa de left eye worsen cos DIABETES! {sry if spell wrong} then the right eye too much those white white stuff accumulating! making his vision blur~ haiz TIME HAS COME ! grandpa signed the document~ sceduled for operation on the 18th . .

人老了最怕病来磨~ 外公加油！
haiz can see grandpa is scared altho when i asked him he say he is not
but when is asked the nurse isit painful, can sense his fear~ 叹气

9:45:00 PM
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